well i guess i should start this off other than leaving it at my main post lol..
This is a poem i wrote to give to my son when he is older.. it took so much for me to write this but it had to be done..
The very first time I saw those two lines,
I
knew I was being looked after,
my angel baby came down,
and
said I told you,
you will be a mother one day,
even thou you
had hard times and fighting each day,
for all the good times you
have yet to come,
you will be a mother dear,
to love and
protect your little one.
I couldn't believe what I saw,
so
I decided to take ten more,
every single one came back as two,
I
felt such love an warmth inside of me,
knowing im a mom is amazing
cant you see.
The scan I had broke my heart,
there was no
sign of a beating heart,
I had to wait nine horrible days,
but
thanks to my angel,
I was totally amazed,
a heart was beating
fast an strong,
I thank my angel for keeping him strong.
I
hugged my belly and closed my eyes,
telling my son you will
survive,
through the nine months,
I spotted and had pain,
omg
is it happening again,
but thank you to my angel,
he hanged on
with all his mite,
he wasn't giving up without a fight.
As
my baby grew inside me,
my belly got bigger and I glowed
outside,
every movement and every kick I felt,
I knew my baby
is a fighter like me cant you tell.
No matter what happened
while I carried you,
just don't you ever forget I love you,
you
made my world so complete,
and not forget my angel who gave me
you.
8 weeks slow labor and 82 hours full,
I didn't care
what pain I had,
cause you was inside me and had to come out,
with
every push and every pain,
I knew you was closer to being in my
arms.
I felt your head crown,
I never gave up,
I wanted
you in my arms right now,
with a deep breath in,
I pushed you
out,
but there was a problem and they rushed you away,
without
me being able to look at your face.
I couldn't cry,
I
couldn't breath,
I just wanted you in my arms couldn't they
see,
when I heard your first cry,
I knew you was alive,
thank
you my angel,
you made your mommy feel alive.
When they
handed me your tiny body,
I held you close to my chest and gave
you a kiss,
told you I loved you and id never let you go,
cause
you are my amazing little boy.
You still wasn't out of the
woods that day,
you wouldn't feed and I begged you to take,
they
came and checked you and then took you away,
I cried my eyes out
and stayed by your side.
My angel baby came back to me,
even
thou she never left your side you see,
she told that I shouldn't
worry,
she gave me a glimpse of all hope and glory,
when
they gave you back to me,
I held you close so tender and sweet,
I
had a tear drop on my cheek,
telling you I love you and you are
never leaving me.
Five days in hospital because of your
father,
I hated him for all the hurt and pain,
but loved him
for giving me you,
if that one night didn't happen,
you
wouldn't be here right now running me crazy.
So I thank you my
angel baby for every hope,
cause without you here, I would have
been broke,
I will never forget you or not forget,
that my son
is here with you inside him,
protecting him.
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